Friday 1st July 2011
I had a lovely chat with a close friend last night. One who knows from first-hand experience exactly what I am going through. She confirmed my fears, I shall regret this forever if I make the wrong choice. What would life be without challenges to keep us focused and motivated? What is a normal life that my Husband and I yearn for? Maybe this is normal.
I can imagine there are many women throughout the world asking themselves the same questions. This year has indeed been a challenge for me. I’ve overcome breast cancer, I walked 13 miles in just over three hours to raise money and most of all, I passed the first year of my Primary Teaching Degree. How can I give up on that now? I’ve worked so hard for two years no to be able to get this far at University. The Access course at college was demanding but not a patch on the first year at University with the school placements alongside.
The finance for students is far from wonderful however, it is something. If I was to defer my course for a year it would mean living on nothing, maybe even losing the house. My Husband has been thinking the same too. His fears are, that for the life of a newborn baby we could be putting the security of a good home and future career at risk for myself and the children that we already have. It hurts so much inside to work out what to do for the best. What is best?